Reality’s seriously kicking my ass right now. What i wouldn’t give to be a little kid again and not have a damn thing to worry about. Just to live my life so carefree. I kind of feel like I’m in this little rat race and I’m finishing last. When I take my last breath what will I have accomplished besides working way more hours than I should and basically alienating all who ever cared or loved me. the past few days have been nothing but a series of epic realizations. Perhaps realizations that came to pass a day late. My mother told me I had my fathers temper and that because of his temper he has no one. Now I truly feel like I have no one. Like I’ve spent the better part of my life pushing people away. My life’s objective is to learn how to forgive without being asked to.