I know this isn’t the same as the one before me.  I trust that if her plate wasn’t so full things would be different.  But I don’t trust my own feelings and my own heart.  I’m breaking my own heart keeping things the way they are.  I can only get out now while the gettin’s good.   Perhaps the last thing she needed to hear at that time was  lets just take a step back.   But you know how Katt put it.  You got to look out for your star player. Right now my star player’s playing with injuries.  I kinda feel like there’s something there between them and deny it as she might.  You can’t go thru a roller coaster ride with someone you’re not in love with.   They can’t affect you like that.  My ex wanted me back and tho I love her I wasn’t in love with her and I guess that her coming back didn’t really phase me.  But I’m different from most.   Maybe love is all it takes for someone to push your buttons the way they do.   I don’t know.  But I do know that I can’t have myself in such a tight spot anymore.  This situation reminds me of the last in that “she swore there was nothing left”  then in the middle of what we had going who pops up but the ex.  Only difference here is at least this one’s honest.

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