can’t really put into words how i’m feelin so I posted a video. I want what most people want. Maybe I want it because I want to feel like a normal human being. But normal feels like such a relative term with which to compare oneself. Could it be my wishes and dreams are the wishes and dreams everyone else had years ago? the hope to be with someone and to mesh so well with that person to build with this person have kids with this person and raise kids with them. do I want something that nobody wants anymore?