Principalities and Powers

I’ve been having this Internal Struggle for the past week or so. I want nothing more than to do what is right and pleasing in the sight of the Lord. But there is a struggle going on within me. I’d been perplexed all week wondering how to solve this issue and here it was the answer was right in front of me. This, in and of itself is proof that God knows our hearts and though sometimes we find ourselves inarticulate (as I have), he truly knows what is heavy on our minds. So this entire week Ephesians chapter 6 has been standing out to me. In my daily sojourn I’ve come across that particular chapter and verse 12. But I never quite knew how to apply it to my present situation. So I asked God in earnest to reveal the answers I needed through the Holy Spirit and he told me to continue reading my bible and continue praying. Well tonight I decided to start an entry blogging about the very thing that’s been troubling me all week. See My faith hasn’t been as strong as it used to be when I was 17 years old. 14 years have since passed and I’ve seen so much. Maybe not as much as other people. But I’ve seen and experienced so many things that I’ve become cynical. There are 2 halves at war within me. One half would like to believe in simple miracles. The other half that’s puffed up with pride would like to explain them away. So there you have it my struggle between Faith and worldly skepticism. Yet I didn’t quite know how to approach this struggle until I read Ephesians 6:10 – 18:

10Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. 11Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. 12For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. 13Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. 14Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; 15And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 16Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. 17And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: 18Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

It seems as if I’ve tested God each day by asking for an answer to the questions in my mind. Asking for answers to prove that he’s really there for me and that he really cares despite how unworthy I am. And once again he has proven himself to me which lets me know that I should never ever doubt God.

2 Replies to “Principalities and Powers”

  1. Great post! I can completely identify with the internal struggle. It’s something I’ve dealt with for a long time. I feel like I knew God on this very real, very incredible level when I was 14 years old, but I too have seen so much, experienced so much and I guess become Jaded over the years. Now, one side of me wants to have the relationship with God that I feel I once did and the other half of me is not sure I believe in God at all anymore and I heavily question if the close relationship that I thought I experienced with God all those years ago was ever real to begin with. Thank you for the honest post. It’s refreshing to know that I am not the only one who deals with the “two halves.”

  2. That is exactly what I’d been going through, at least until I read that chapter and I realized that in order to grow in the Lord I need to read his word and pray every day and every waking hour that I can. Romans 10:17 which states “Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ”. But thanks for letting me know I’m not alone Andrea. At least I don’t feel like such a weirdo anymore :). God knows our heart’s desire and I knwo that he is faithful to provide them if they are in league with his will

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