I remember my bro coming into my room one night. overly emotional he was.  He was crying.  he was drunk but a drunk mind speaks a sober heart ( or at least I think that’s how the proverb goes).  Needless to say my brother battles his own demons. and right at that moment I wasn’t sure how to help him fight his battle since I was losing my own.  But that was then and this is now and there is nothing like the Blood of Jesus to pull you through sporadic bouts  of depression.  I believe God has a plan for me and I believe he has one for my brother.  And while there are yet the atypical Goals I’d like to see come to pass as a Young Jamerican thirtysomething, I’ve realized an even deeper focus.   I realized that I’d like everything in my life to work out to God’s glory.   Now that I’ve said that out loud to myself, I feel like this great big burden’s been lifted.  Because while I was yet focusing on the cross and fulfilling God’s will in my life,   He was working inconspicuously in the background to help me achieve my own  dreams which I’ve since put on the back burner.   I got this letter in the mail informing me that the law suit –  dredged up from an auto-accident 4 years ago – is no more….   Can you imagine what it feels like to struggle with unemployment or low paying jobs trying to stay afloat financially then to be served by a marshall because it’s a recession and wow “my back pain is kicking in so let me sue Meshia for some money she doesn’t have” .  Don’t get me wrong.  I’m not complaining.   I actually find it quite comical.  But just contemplating the circumstances surrounding this particular situation i was sure to have a brain aneurysm by now.  But God works in awe-inspiring mysterious ways and while I was trying to add another day to my life by fretting,  He was pulling some strings.  so what can I say except Thank You Jesus.  I will look to the hills from whence cometh my help. 


This weeks Literary Jewel:

Christianity and the Working Girl

After a long discussion with Terique last week and part of today, it occurred to me (God I’m so obtuse) that God has been trying to get my attention.  Have you ever felt totally frustrated about  your situation?  Perhaps you thought your circumstances were unfair.  Like your co-worker  showing up for work when he feels like it and your having to bear the onus of the workload.   Insignificant as it may seem.  It’s all a part of God’s plan for us.  I’ve been moaning and groaning about my circumstance for so long that  I failed to consult God for his wise instruction.    Immediate resolution; make snide remarks and comments until they either reprimand me for the little snipes or fire me.  Ultimate resolution; pray about it and study the word.   I finally selected the latter.   And Ephesians 6:5 – 8 says :

5 Bondservants, be obedient to those who are your masters according to the flesh, with fear and trembling, in sincerity of heart, as to Christ; 6 not with eyeservice, as men-pleasers, but as bondservants of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart, 7with goodwill doing service, as to the Lord, and not to men, 8knowing that whatever good anyone does, he will receive the same from the Lord, whether he is a slave or free.”

Lets dissect this passage shall we:

“not with eyeservice, as men-pleasers…”   Abe Lincoln summed it up best when he said: “you can please some of the people all of the time and all of the people some of the time, but you can’t please all of the people all of the time”

Your goal should be to do what’s pleasing in God’s sight.  And in my honest opinion — as corroborated by the bible– It is best to apply diligence in all situations. thereby manifesting God’s work in your life.   Isn’t that what our ultimate focus should be?  Because though your hard work may go un-noticed by your employer or management.  God is taking  careful notice.  At the end of the day, you are a reflection of your Father in Heaven.

My Righteous Mind

good morning, readers, if there are any.   maybe there aren’t. nevertheless, this was created for my own therapeutic needs.


Yesterday was my coming out day.   I came out of the spiritual closet.  I need to show God that I love him and I know that I haven’t been living as a spiritual being.   I’ve garnered such distrust for people that it is quite hard for me to show God’s love to others.   But as I was reading Hebrews 13:1, It really hit home that I should show my fellow man love just as God has shown love to me.   I should have no excuses because as imperfect as I am God still chooses to work in my life.  And I have realized that I cannot function or live without God in my life.   I don’t know how you do it but for me it’s been tough trying to go it alone.   So in parting I leave you with Phillipians 4: 8

8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.