I believe God hears all prayer and all concession.  This morning I prayed for a word that I might impart to my grieving mother.   She’s steeped in depression and confusion over the loss of her son and because of it she’s given herself over to anger and resentment.  Currently there are some evil forces at work that would  seek to destroy us and what we have established as a family.   But I believe in the blood of Jesus.   The man who walked on water and by the hem of whose garment we are all healed.   I believe that if a man can sacrifice himself on the cross for the sins of the world past and present. That if he can bare all our pain our shame and our iniquity  then he can definitely fix what’s broken in us.  All we have to do is listen to his word  and as the scripture says:

Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation,

1 Peter 2:2.

I thank God for the blessings I have and am surrounded with and continue in the hope and belief that he will work it out.  

Terique and I have this unspoken book reading competition and so far he’s beating me.   Now I was going to take the time to read and catch up to him in our current series: Game of thrones.  But I would be hard-pressed to ingest the word of God.   herein lies the caveat; Where do I begin?   What book?   What chapter in the bible can I use for life application?

The Power Struggle

Maybe I’m giving him a lot more credit than he deserves.  I do believe that he has been a blessing to me.   But I’ve in a sense created a monster.  I’ve given him more control over my life than was necessary.  Ecclesiastes 4:12 says

12 Though one may be overpowered,
   two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

the cord of three strands being the metaphor for the man, the woman, and God.   At the center of it all we must all keep our focus on God and yet as humans, so many of us tend to lose sight of that when we get involved in a relationship.  The focus is shifted from God to our significant other.  Now I’m not saying that I believe one should forsake loving your husband or your wife.  But your husband/wife should not have the kind of control over you that our Father in heaven does.   It would be considered a form of idolatry to center your very existence on one person.

I feel that I’ve been doing exactly that.    I feel like I’m trying to make something work that isn’t supposed to work.  so now I’m left in a state of confusion. is it in God’s plan for me to be with this man?   I’m that missing rib.  But I don’t think he’s in need of a missing rib.   God help me to see this situation for what it really is.  not thru my eyes or anyone else’s but thru your eyes.   Help me to make the right decisions so that I may overcome these hurdles.   Maybe he’ll come around and maybe he won’t.  Maybe he’s not at that place in his life.   But please allow me to open my eyes.

Insurmountable Odds

My life’s brand new.  I’ve relocated to Florida and all prospects are daunting.  My Brother passed away on Friday June 17th.   Cause of Death is still unknown and pending further study.   There looms, so much uncertainty in our lives, that our faith in God has been tested.    I ponder the outcome of all these steps we’ve taken.  My Mom needs to obtain legal guardianship of my nephew.   My brother’s funeral expenses have left us destitute and I am currently out of  a job.   I left what was once my home and my job to relocate to a state in which, I know no one and have to rely on the kindness of strangers and perhaps family members to get by.   I am indeed humbled by my current circumstance but I know there’s  a reason why God sent me here.   It’s just taking me a long time to understand it.   I’m swamped by confusion at this point and I hate not knowing what’s going to come next.  But these past few weeks have taught me some invaluable lessons.   Cliche as they may sound.   Tomorrow is promised to no-one.   So love and appreciate the individuals in your life whom God has blessed you with and use your time here on earth with them wisely.