“In my twenty-seventh year, while riding the metro in Leningrad (now St. Petersburg) I was overcome with a despair so great that life seemed to stop at once, preempting the future entirely, let alone any meaning. Suddenly, all by itself, a phrase appeared: Without God life makes no sense. Repeating it in astonishment, I rode the phrase up like a moving staircase, got out of the metro and walked into God’s light.”
Warren, Rick (2008-09-02). The Purpose Driven Life: What on Earth Am I Here For? (p. 21). Zondervan. Kindle Edition.
Have you ever come to the disheartening realization that your life is nothing but a series of routines? Each day you get up and you do the same thing you did the day before monotonously without thought to spiritual objectives. It’s what living in a void is like. And for most of us this is a fact albeit one some will deny to their graves. However it’s a fact that we are all searching for something to fill that void. And often times when looking in the wrong places, we are filled with a sense of despair as described by Russian Novelist Andrei Britov in the blurb above.
We feel as if we’re going through the motions with no end in sight. No purpose in sight hence, the coined phrase “what is the meaning of life?”
I don’t know about you but I’ve felt like that for a good part of my existence. It had me figuratively dragging my feet. It’s depressing when you wake up each day feeling as if your life was going no where fast. You don’t usually have to be a statistic to feel this way. You don’t have be one of those people who need drugs to get up and need drugs to go to bed. You don’t have to be Whitney or Michael or some insanely rich billionaire with trust issues. You can be a regular schmoe like me. Someone who might not have gone through as many misfortunes but is sentient enough to be affected by their own mundane existence. That is darkness. That is living ones life in obscurity.
But all that changed one day for me. Like Saul on the road to Damascus, the scales fell from my eyes and Immediately I could see. There is a huge difference living in God’s light. Your perspective changes. Colors become more vivid and smells are sharper. You see everything around you from a different point of view and in so doing your interaction with others changes. Where you were once a misanthrope you are now a humanitarian. I could see all the possibilities for my life. I could see the many ways my life could change and I was encouraged. God encouraged me in so many ways that I am forever grateful for the things he has done. No amount of pill-popping, drinking, clubbing or debauchery could ever replace that feeling.
So now for the first time in my life, I can say that I am truly Blessed. Why, because now I know that there is a God I can turn to in my darkest hour. Even when my life seems off-kilter, I know that I can look to God to steer me in the direction of my Purpose. I can see a life of purpose and self-sacrifice in my future. What can you see in yours?