There are too many folks with access to this blog. So I feel I can’t be as candid as I once was.  There are some outside factors affecting my growth. Or… Stunting my growth.  They range from incest / molestation to health to my non – relationship with my dad for which I constantly feel guilty.  I wanna say it but I don’t want speak the negative
into existence. So I’ll just leave things be for now.

Happy Travels all


The wheat is going to be alright

The wheat is going to be alright Another parable put he forth unto them, saying, The kingdom of heaven is likened unto a man which sowed good seed in his field: But while men slept, his enemy came and sowed tares among the wheat, and went his way. But when the blade was sprung up, and brought forth fruit, then appeared the tares also. So the servants of the householder came and said unto him, Sir, didst not thou sow good seed in thy field? from whence then hath it tares? He said unto them, An enemy hath done this. The servants said unto him, Wilt thou then that we go and gather them up? But he said, Nay; lest while ye gather up the tares, ye root up also the wheat with them.

There is a correlation between success and sowing

Sowing & success go hand in hand But this I say, He which soweth sparingly shall reap also sparingly; and he which soweth bountifully shall reap also bountifully. Every man according as he purposeth in his heart, so let him give; not grudgingly, or of necessity: for God loveth a cheerful giver. And God is able to make all grace abound toward you; that ye, always having all sufficiency in all things, may abound to every good work:

Sowing is always something that you’re doing and not something that you’ve done.

When God starts blessing you,
It’s just a matter of time before you start seeing some foes in your life.

Verse 30. God (being the owner of the field) has faith that you will not be hindered by the evil that surrounds you. GOD has confidence that you can blossom right where he planted you.

He believes that in the midst of a poisonous environment you like those blades will rise or spring up.
I’m too powerful not to rise. You have what it takes to still rise. You have everything it takes on the inside of you to RISE.

Verse 26 not only did the blade spring up but it brought forth fruit.

The enemy sowed tare all around the wheat. Your praise isn’t predicated on who’s around you. In the presence of Tare the wheat still produced


Without God Life Makes no Sense

“In my twenty-seventh year, while riding the metro in Leningrad (now St. Petersburg) I was overcome with a despair so great that life seemed to stop at once, preempting the future entirely, let alone any meaning. Suddenly, all by itself, a phrase appeared: Without God life makes no sense. Repeating it in astonishment, I rode the phrase up like a moving staircase, got out of the metro and walked into God’s light.”

Warren, Rick (2008-09-02). The Purpose Driven Life: What on Earth Am I Here For? (p. 21). Zondervan. Kindle Edition.




Have you ever come to the disheartening realization that your life is nothing but a series of routines?   Each day you get up and you do the same thing you did the day before monotonously without thought to spiritual objectives.   It’s what living in a void is like.  And for most of us this is a fact albeit one some will deny to their graves.   However it’s a fact that we are all searching for something to fill that void.   And often times when looking in the wrong places, we are filled with a sense of despair as described by Russian Novelist Andrei Britov in the blurb above.


We feel as if we’re going through the motions with no end in sight.  No purpose in sight hence, the coined phrase “what is the meaning of life?”


I don’t know about you but I’ve felt like that for a good part of my existence.    It had me figuratively dragging my feet.    It’s depressing when you wake up each day feeling as if your life was going no where fast.  You don’t usually have to be a statistic to feel this way.   You don’t have be one of those people who need drugs to get up and need drugs to go to bed.   You don’t have to be  Whitney or Michael or some insanely rich billionaire with trust issues.   You can be a regular schmoe like me.   Someone who might not have gone through as many misfortunes but is sentient enough to be affected by their own mundane existence.   That is darkness.   That is living ones life in obscurity.   


But all that changed one day for me.   Like Saul on the road to Damascus,  the scales fell from my eyes and Immediately I could see.    There is a huge difference living in God’s light.  Your perspective changes.  Colors become more vivid and smells are sharper.   You see everything around you from a different point of view and in so doing your interaction with others changes.   Where you were once a misanthrope you are now a humanitarian.   I could see all the possibilities for my life.   I could see the many ways my life could change and I was encouraged.   God encouraged me in so many ways that I am forever grateful for the things he has done.   No amount of pill-popping, drinking, clubbing  or debauchery could ever replace that feeling. 


So now for the first time in my life,  I can say that I am truly Blessed.   Why, because now I know that there is a God I can turn to in my darkest hour.   Even when my life seems off-kilter,  I know that I can look to God to steer me in the direction of my  Purpose.     I can see a life of purpose and self-sacrifice in my future.   What can you see in yours?

Death is Only the Beginning

I was reading 1 Corinthians Chapter 15 and In the first few verses I believe Paul depicted his faith and belief in the death and resurrection of Christ. Also corroborating this fact with the sightings as told to him by his predecessors and based also upon his own witness of Christ (on the road to Damascus to persecute the believers).  He states in the first few chapters that those who had seen Christ rise from the dead were still also among the living.   He goes on to discuss the growing unrest and disbelief amongst the believers of Christ who were under the impression resurrection was impossible.  In his rebuttal, he applies logic.  Our faith would indeed be in vain if we did not believe in the Resurrection of Christ.   For if we do not believe in Christ’s Resurrection, how can we believe in having Everlasting Life?   Wouldn’t our Salvation be in vain? That being said,  Paul states “For to your shame I say that some of you don’t know God at all”.   I believe that he pointedly makes this statement for clarification that if you believe that resurrection is impossible while calling yourself a Believer, then you do not know Christ at all. That would be oxymoronic.  

in verse  33 Paul goes on to state:

“Don’t be fooled by those who say such things, for “bad company corrupts good character.”

Do not give credence to common misnomers and clichés like:  “let’s party like it’s 1999” or  as Jaysean would put it “Part Like it’s 2012”.  Because even when the World Ends verses 51 and 52 state:

But let me reveal to you a wonderful secret. We will not all die, but we will all be transformed! 52 It will happen in a moment, in the blink of an eye, when the last trumpet is blown. For when the trumpet sounds, those who have died will be raised to live forever. And we who are living will also be transformed.

church this morning

tears are the pop off valves of the soul.

when the pressures of life weigh heavy upon us

sometimes it’s alright to shed a tear

because those tears relieve pressure

it’s alright to cry

but don’t cry as if you have no hope

but cry with a degree of certainty

that one day Jesus is able to wipe all tears from our eyes


Our loss is heavens gain

                                                  – Pastor Arthur Jakcson