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    Without God Life Makes no Sense

    “In my twenty-seventh year, while riding the metro in Leningrad (now St. Petersburg) I was overcome with a despair so great that life seemed to stop at once, preempting the future entirely, let alone any meaning. Suddenly, all by itself, a phrase appeared: Without God life makes no sense. Repeating it in astonishment, I rode the phrase up like a moving staircase, got out of the metro and walked into God’s light.” Warren, Rick (2008-09-02). The Purpose Driven Life: What on Earth Am I Here For? (p. 21). Zondervan. Kindle Edition.       Have you ever come to the disheartening realization that your life is nothing but a series…

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    Death is Only the Beginning

    I was reading 1 Corinthians Chapter 15 and In the first few verses I believe Paul depicted his faith and belief in the death and resurrection of Christ. Also corroborating this fact with the sightings as told to him by his predecessors and based also upon his own witness of Christ (on the road to Damascus to persecute the believers).  He states in the first few chapters that those who had seen Christ rise from the dead were still also among the living.   He goes on to discuss the growing unrest and disbelief amongst the believers of Christ who were under the impression resurrection was impossible.  In his rebuttal, he…

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    church this morning

    tears are the pop off valves of the soul. when the pressures of life weigh heavy upon us sometimes it’s alright to shed a tear because those tears relieve pressure it’s alright to cry but don’t cry as if you have no hope but cry with a degree of certainty that one day Jesus is able to wipe all tears from our eyes   Our loss is heavens gain                                                   – Pastor Arthur Jakcson

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    The Purpose Driven Life

    I woke up this morning and I read some scripture and read my bible plans.  I read from this book also.  The book is called  “The Purpose Driven Life”.   But I topped it all off with an argument via text with Terique.   He broached a valid point to me and rather than admit he was right I chose to argue.  I mean I did see holes in his theory but that was the wrong time to broach that.   So I fought him tooth and nail until I finally realized I was back in that Rut again.   I have a problem with being wrong.   Better yet I have a problem with…

  • African American,  Lifestyle,  Love,  Relationships

    His Dark Passenger

    He is becoming unraveled.  I’m starting to think that what he doesn’t need is a girlfriend.  What he does need is professional help (or an exorcist).  There was a point in my life when I couldn’t live without him.  But now I don’t know.  I was ready to leave again last night.  Lately I’ve been thinking that I’m not quite cut out for relationships or marriage.  He once represented my picket fence dream.  But now he represents a life in bondage.  A simple gesture might set him off.  What happens then?  will he kill me?

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    Homage to the Anomaly

    Where am I in my relationship with God?  Have I developed another Stronghold?  Could it be that my captor is me?  I’m at a stalemate.  I’m standing at a junction facing too many forks in the road, not knowing which option to take.  I am trying to please everybody and yet I can please no one.   it feels so much like I’m under pressure. under the Gun expected to meet certain criteria. so much so that I forgot what being me was about.  I can’t place blame.  I’m too old for the blame game.  but how do I resolve it without finding the source and eradicating it.   just another of…

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    Simplicity

    I’ve discussed at length how depressed I’ve been and I think that God has answered my prayers in granting me a new lease on life.  Here I am in sunny Florida with a job and new apartment and everyday thanking God for waking me anew.  Thanking God for what I do have in my life and trying to make changes for the better.  I think lately I’ve been a serial whiner. But that’s about to change. presently I’m working on a flyer for my church “To The Word Ministries”.   Next I’ll be working on my Network Plus certification and I’ve decided to do a complete overhaul on the physical. new…

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    The Mundane

    feeling small and insignificant. just some random person. if I disappear it would be as if I were never here.  the hard thing about being a Christian is that God reminds you that you are human.  That you exist. And though advantageous it might seem. You’re also reminded that you are susceptible to life’s imperfections. To slights. to ill-used words.  you ask yourself which is better?  to cease to exist? or to feel alive and remain vulnerable to pain.    Yet suddenly I see my life in such a vivid array of Vibrant colors.  My senses have awakened and it beats the humdrum of  obscurity.  This life beats the grey…

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    On Thursday I removed another scrap of paper from the Prayer Box Terique gave me.   I found a Job which I start on Monday.  Yet I can’t help feeling melancholy ( and guilty because of it).   I know I should be happy but the one thing I want in this world, I cannot have.   Often we take for granted those we have around us. Especially, our siblings and we just don’t realize that one day we could lose them.  Let’s face it, its not like you can just go to the store and buy a new one to replace the one you lost.   We can do that with possessions but…