• African American

    Insurmountable Odds

    My life’s brand new.  I’ve relocated to Florida and all prospects are daunting.  My Brother passed away on Friday June 17th.   Cause of Death is still unknown and pending further study.   There looms, so much uncertainty in our lives, that our faith in God has been tested.    I ponder the outcome of all these steps we’ve taken.  My Mom needs to obtain legal guardianship of my nephew.   My brother’s funeral expenses have left us destitute and I am currently out of  a job.   I left what was once my home and my job to relocate to a state in which, I know no one and…

  • African American

    It feels so unreal. Friday night was my nightmare. It’s still my nightmare. it’s funny how when someone dies we just can’t believe it. It’s like we get infuriated when they don’t answer. I keep playing the scene over and over in my head and I just know tonight, I’m gonna wake up in cold sweats screaming my brother’s name. willing him to wake up, willing him to open that door. I want my brother back. Dear God I want him back. Give him back to me. Please I implore you give him back. How dear you leave your little sister all alone to fend for herself. Did you think…

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    Prologue

    It was one of those dreary days.  Not real wintry, just the kind of day that was best spent in doors sipping coffee or a latte.   But not for me.  I had to go against the grain. I was at Barnes and Nobles moaning and groaning on the phone.  Recalling how much I missed Borders Books.  Terique was quite accommodating.  He let me ramble on about how unsatisfied i was with having to shop at B&N when Borders the love of my life had passed way (went out of business).  So  here I am perusing the aisles, looking for books in Fantasy fiction and Fiction; indecisive  about what I wanted to…

  • African American

    after careful self-analysis, I’ve determined that I’m very goal oriented when it comes to work.  I like working in teams especially when the overall work ethic is  great.   But when it falls on the opposite end of the spectrum, I find it disheartening; frustrating even.   I think it’s a big deal when co-workers show up late or not at – all. or when other people don’t pull their weight.  because I know how great the results would be if we could all just band together and get it done.   same theory applies to living together in a household.  But when one person’s pulling their weight and the rest isn’t, it…

  • African American

    I remember my bro coming into my room one night. overly emotional he was.  He was crying.  he was drunk but a drunk mind speaks a sober heart ( or at least I think that’s how the proverb goes).  Needless to say my brother battles his own demons. and right at that moment I wasn’t sure how to help him fight his battle since I was losing my own.  But that was then and this is now and there is nothing like the Blood of Jesus to pull you through sporadic bouts  of depression.  I believe God has a plan for me and I believe he has one for my…

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    Christianity and the Working Girl

    After a long discussion with Terique last week and part of today, it occurred to me (God I’m so obtuse) that God has been trying to get my attention.  Have you ever felt totally frustrated about  your situation?  Perhaps you thought your circumstances were unfair.  Like your co-worker  showing up for work when he feels like it and your having to bear the onus of the workload.   Insignificant as it may seem.  It’s all a part of God’s plan for us.  I’ve been moaning and groaning about my circumstance for so long that  I failed to consult God for his wise instruction.    Immediate resolution; make snide remarks and comments until…

  • African American

    My Righteous Mind

    good morning, readers, if there are any.   maybe there aren’t. nevertheless, this was created for my own therapeutic needs.   Yesterday was my coming out day.   I came out of the spiritual closet.  I need to show God that I love him and I know that I haven’t been living as a spiritual being.   I’ve garnered such distrust for people that it is quite hard for me to show God’s love to others.   But as I was reading Hebrews 13:1, It really hit home that I should show my fellow man love just as God has shown love to me.   I should have no excuses…

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    There is no I in team.

      Every time I say, “i love football” , i get “name 3 offensive linemen on this team”.  why do I need to know stats  and names socials and date of births?  Why can’t I just like the game?  Have you ever asked me why I like the game? Or do you assume I say I like it so I can have something to talk about   Yes I’m a pats fan but it’s not for the ride on the bandwagon.  I started watching football (or shall we say learning about football) in an era where teams played with heart. I liked other teams too. I liked the Steelers, the Colts…

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    Leap of Faith

    I’m not even gonna lie.   I’ve been an irresponsible cad for the last decade or so.  But here’s what makes God such an awesome God; He’s there even when you’re not.   Even when our own inconsistencies seem to get the Best of us God is unchanging.  He will never back down from his promises to us.   That alone makes him awesome and worthy of praise.  There is no mere human on this planet that can match  our God in how he so effortlessly cares for his children even when we’ve done so much to disappoint him. .   Now i know the last entry I wrote, I was lost in translation.  …