My Calling?

sometimes I look at my life and compare it to others and somehow the grass is always greener.  somehow they accomplish things so much easier than I do.  I seem to fail at the simplest of obstacles and everyday requires motivation for me to get up and get back on that hamster’s wheel.  this has been my issue for the past frew years.  My defeatist mentality.  But now that I think about it , I just really need to continue trusting in God and continue making the changes I need to make in life.   I realize that I’m in need of a complete overhaul.  Not just a spiritual overhaul, but I’d say a physical one.  I need to perhaps manage my money and my bills better and secondly (well when you caught the spiritual overhaul it’s really thirdly) my health.   I figured if maybe I list the things I need to change, I’ll probably be better able to manage my life.  

For weeks now I’d been asking God for my calling.  Asking him what it was he needed me to to do and on Sunday he answered my prayers.   I’ve been double-dipping between 2 churches of late.  (see I haven’t found a church home as yet).  There is one church in which the members are few but very warm and welcoming.  Then one in which the members are many but kind of cliquish.    Here’s a list of pro’s and con’s for Church #1.

Church #1
Pros
  • Lively  Service
  • Great Choir
  • Very Inspirational
Cons
  • Not room for much to be done by ordinary members.
  • Leadership has penchant for ignoring you unless you're related to one of them
  • I've been to about 5 of their services and have yet to hear the the Pastor invite people to accept Christ as their Savior

 

Church #2
Pros
  • Very Sociable People
  • Leadership down to earth and approachable
  • more geared towards bringing souls to Christ.
  • Always in need of volunteers from the congregation so it gives one the chance to become a part of something.
Cons
  • Very few members (church had a lot at some point but rumor has it, a family scandal pushed members away from the church)
  • Choir is not the best

So God’s been putting it in my head that If I started attending church #2 that I could do a  lot of good there.  I mean I’m far from a preacher or anything like that, but I know I should have some useful skills that would help in boosting membership.  I will be checking out Church#2 this weekend once again.  The first service I went to wasn’t too impressive but that could possibly be because they had a new preacher (I mean a fresh out of Seminary rookie) who kept stumbling over his words.  I know he meant well.  I just get the feeling that they all mean well and have set out to do the Lord’s work.  I just believe they need a helping hand.   Far be it for me to assume the responsibility but I’ve always been a sucker for the underdog and God has impressed it upon me long enough to know it’s not a fluke.     The question  is, where do I start?