I was about about 22 when I realized I liked women.   I spent most of my teenage life trying to put a finger on it.   But coming of age as I did,  it was hard to identify with this Lesbian lifestyle.   Most of my friends were dick-crazed str8 women.   I don’t think I ever really had anyone to influence my decision.   I wasn’t “turned out” like most.   I just didn’t know what I was and I didn’t want to turn into some flannel wearing bull dyke witha  buzz cut.   I’m still very much feminine.  Just not Primadonna Feminine.   I’m still afraid of bugs.   Who said being gay stripped you of your womanhood?