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    So there you have it.  I’ve read all 7 Merry Gentry Books by Laurell K Hamilton.   It was simply an addiction I had to feed.  I found myself buying novel after novel and having lucid dreams about the characters.  I’m waiting for the 8th book – Divine Misdemeanors—to hit the shelves in December.   It’s been a long time since I’ve picked up one book — let alone 7 books – and not been able to put it back down.   Now I’m sitting here with an itch to scratch because December 8th can’t come fast enough.   And I blame her for introducing me to this newly formed addiction.   The downside;  she…

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    Growing up Gay

    Some days I wake up on the opposite side wishing being gay was an everyday occurrence.   I wake up wishing  it wasn’t an issue people had to march and rally at city hall for.   Like gay was just as normal as being Black or as Being White or as Being Human.   In our own eyes it is an innate part of our being.   But everyday we struggle.   Reactions seem to vary.   “Oh you’re gay!? That’s so cool !”  or “You’re Gay,  what dude fucked you over?”  Because it’s just not normal for a girl to grow up liking other girls unless she went thru some sort of traumatic experience with…

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    I have nothing to say

    I was supposed to call Dad on Saturday.  I’d made a silent vow a few weeks back that he’d hear from me.   I love my Dad but he talks too much.  I’m not the chatterbox type and I can’t stand people who talk too much.  Which probably explain why I don’t use the phone often to call folks and why I’m so difficult to deal with in Long Distance relationships.  My tongue –being the two-edged sword that it is – has always been my one flaw.  So I choose to use it less.  I’ve never quite known how to use tact when expressing my feelings or voicing an opinion which…

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    What makes you so special?……    Still nothing can fill the void in my heart.    My loins follow my heart and will ultimately find satisfaction in my hearts content.    I’ve look at most of the women in my life.  Past or Present and asked,   What makes you so special?    I know that I’m searching for the impossible but my quest continues.   I’d like her to be: refined Open-Minded Well put together Educated Wise beyond her years Silly Laidback but with a touch of class.   Not necessarily elitist class but by no means AMORAL.   She loves to cook (a girl after my own Heart). She’s ambitious She’s supportive She’s objective She…

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    Prerequisites of Blogging Genius

    I’m not at the helm of the blogging community.   No one died and dubbed me “Maya Angelou” or “Toni Morrison” for that matter.   But there are just a few things that get my goat.   Shall we?   The Don’ts Inflammatory Blogs Blogs chocked full-a-ADS and pop-ups. and the oh-so-annoying Vogue quiz Magazines.     Is this all that sums up your existence?  Your Maury Povich lifestyle and your “how to keep your man/woman questionnaires”.   The Do’s Autobiographies Epic Realizations Range  -  Broadened Horizons This is what lets us know we exist for a reason.

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    Back on the bike

    Things didn’t go exactly as planned this year.  I was supposed to move to DC or VA but then bossman pulled a switch on us.   We all lost our jobs with the exception of “P”  who was offered a position in VA.   Actually S and C quit before their exit dates.   Under the seemingly depressing circumstances, I found some semblance of a blessing in that I’ve moved on to bigger and better ventures with God’s help.  I’m now working on a trial basis with the local cable company which for me is a step in the right direction(It’ll look good on my Resume).  If all goes well then I should…

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    The New Black Face

    I sure wish that I could ebb the tide of discomfort  I feel here in America.  But the older I get the more homesick I am.  Sadly enough,  I can’t go home.  I can’t go home to homophobia and gay bashing and hate crimes incited by homophobia.  I really just feel like I don’t belong anywhere.   And now thanks to today’s little episode,  I’m as uncomfortable in my own skin as I am living in this country.  So i happened across this new little virtual reality site called Second Life.   Everything’s been great at least until today.   Now let me say this,  I’ve never experienced racism in  all it’s glory…

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    Everything fueling our passion is Rage , Anger, and bloodlust.   Its what wages our wars, continues our strife and our struggles.  Most of us don’t even remember what we’re fighting for.   We lost sight of that decades ago. we raise our children in the same bloodlust and thirst for revenge and we expect everyone else to do better .   So I’ve come to understand the saying in the bible stands true.  Turn the other cheek.  It’s something that is hard for us as humans to do, but I think that if at some point one of us decides to  “be the bigger man” , our wars will end and we…

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    Why I refuse to go Home Unless Absolutely Necessary…..

    “One morning, at about two o’clock my friend was at a dance in the community. He was enjoying himself and dancing when suddenly there was a gunshot and a bullet hit my friend in the back of his head. He turned around – and they shoot him in his face three more times. He fell and they shoot him as he lay on the ground. They then announced that I was next. Hearing that, I run from the community and have been moving from house to house trying to avoid homelessness…”   It makes it hard to embrace a culture whose first resolution to societal differences is violence.  Folks always…