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    road trip part 2 (DNR)

    I guess what hurt more than seeing her like that was the fact she’d opened her home to so many of her immediate family members and now that she’s sick with Parkinsons no one was there but J. Her son lives in the subdivision across the street yet it’s Easter and he hasn’t even attempted to call and say “Happy Easter Mom” . But what can you expect from someone who wanted to cut the life support when his moms condition worsened. She could hear him saying “do not resuscitate” which prompted her to let the words “I’m alive” faintly escape her lips. Sometimes I think about it and the…

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    Road Trip Part 1.

    I’m on my way back from GA. we visited with my cousin J and Aunt I for the easter weekend. I hadn’t seen Aunt I since 2006 when I was out there on business so it came as a surprise to me when I saw her posted up in that hospital bed in the living room, her neck permanently bent to one side and speaking in low tones. Its a far cry from the Aunt I I knew growing up. She was a stately woman and a kindhearted one. She’s not my biological aunt but she’s treated me better than some of my own aunts .

  • African American,  Family,  Genes


    Geneology Account Meesh My old life was a far cry from what it is now. I’ve undergone a sort of metamorphosis. I was looking at an old photo montage I made back when grandpa died. Then I started looking up my aunt’s name on the Internet. I found out that she was quite brilliant as is her husband and son. She’s into computers also. So I guess the whole computer geek thing is a genetic thing. I never knew until the age of 28 that my aunt was an inventor or a scholar. Part of me wishes I’d stayed with my dad when I was younger because I probably would’ve…

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    The Straight Pill

    Now I’m not one to typically piggyback off someone else’s entry. But this one evoked a lot of emotion in me. I guess coz of my religious upbringing. But read it. Let me know how you feel and if you like it pass it on. Oh yes STOLEN FROM APOCKETFULLOFHOPE The Straight Pill Date March 13, 2009 If there was a pill that could make me straight …..Straight in body …..Straight in mind …..Straight in heart ……….I would not take it. If taking such a pill would restore all my lost friendships …..And regain my parents pride …..And give back my families respect …..…..I would not take it. If taking…

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    It’s Official….

    Twitter is a piece of shit.?? Twice I?ve attempted to log on today and twice, I?ve been told that the site is down for maintenance.??? Are you telling me that people are so seriously addicted to Twitter that they never log off and spend 24 hours of each day of every week hitting the refresh button? *checks my person*.?? Am I one of those people??? Today was a better day for me.? I?m thinking clearly and I?m oh so focused at work.? I think it?s because I?m not head over heels or twitterpated.?? I think my problem with love is that I?m in love with the concept of being in…

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    Luck be a Lady Tonight

    I got a newfound crush who will never know I exist. She made me fall in love with hip hop again and Lord knows it’s been years since Meesh was in love with hip hop. But I shit you not the one chick I’d compromise all my values for should the opportunity ever present itself is the one, the only; Lady Luck. In short, Meesh would like to bone Lady Luck. I don’t know if it’s just the crazy punch lines or the laidback swagga. Either way she’ll get it.

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    Road Trip

    Ladies and Gentlemen.   Well Ladies anyway.   Hmm I wonder why I don’t have any male friends?   It’d be nice to have a male friend who I can relate to without them trying to fuck me or without them telling me that the past 8 years of my homosexuality have been nothing but a phase.  But that’s a topic for another day.  I’m taking a road trip down to Georgia for the Easter weekend.   It’s a family outing for which I’ll be dusting off the Nikon and catching the sights.   I’m driving 4 hours.  My brother’s driving 4 hours and My Mom’s driving 4 hours.  Then from GA, I’m driving 5…

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    in surmise

    I haven’t really had a moment to myself this past week.  I’ve mainly been stressing out about work and all the bullshit that comes with it.  But for the first time in a long time I found myself thinking clearly yesterday.  It’s been kind of hard learning all the aspects of data recovery in the lab.   But I find that once I approach things with a clear head I’m usually able to figure it out.   So yesterday was a great day at work despite my boss bitching about recoveries and despite the fact I damn near tore my thumbnail off.   Lately I’ve only been talking to Aquafina and it seems…

  • Honesty,  Love,  Relationships,  Trust

    6 degrees of dyke drama

    There arises this insurmountable urge to shut the lesbian world and it’s 6 degrees of dyke drama out.   On this edition of Lunar Lunacy;  Aquafina issued an apology for how she treated me during our relationship.   So did CH.   Supposedly she felt bad for being dishonest when all I asked of her was honesty.  But it was a little hard to swallow considering she’s been concocting stories about me and relaying them to random individuals.  None of whom are interconnected.   She sent me a text this morning saying  “Man you a cold peace of work its kewl don’t worrie bout me blowin up  ur phone or beggin you as you put it.”  She’s half right.  I am cold.…