There are too many folks with access to this blog. So I feel I can’t be as candid as I once was.  There are some outside factors affecting my growth. Or… Stunting my growth.  They range from incest / molestation to health to my non – relationship with my dad for which I constantly feel guilty.  I wanna say it but I don’t want speak the negative
into existence. So I’ll just leave things be for now.

Happy Travels all


The wheat is going to be alright

The wheat is going to be alright Another parable put he forth unto them, saying, The kingdom of heaven is likened unto a man which sowed good seed in his field: But while men slept, his enemy came and sowed tares among the wheat, and went his way. But when the blade was sprung up, and brought forth fruit, then appeared the tares also. So the servants of the householder came and said unto him, Sir, didst not thou sow good seed in thy field? from whence then hath it tares? He said unto them, An enemy hath done this. The servants said unto him, Wilt thou then that we go and gather them up? But he said, Nay; lest while ye gather up the tares, ye root up also the wheat with them.

There is a correlation between success and sowing

Sowing & success go hand in hand But this I say, He which soweth sparingly shall reap also sparingly; and he which soweth bountifully shall reap also bountifully. Every man according as he purposeth in his heart, so let him give; not grudgingly, or of necessity: for God loveth a cheerful giver. And God is able to make all grace abound toward you; that ye, always having all sufficiency in all things, may abound to every good work:

Sowing is always something that you’re doing and not something that you’ve done.

When God starts blessing you,
It’s just a matter of time before you start seeing some foes in your life.

Verse 30. God (being the owner of the field) has faith that you will not be hindered by the evil that surrounds you. GOD has confidence that you can blossom right where he planted you.

He believes that in the midst of a poisonous environment you like those blades will rise or spring up.
I’m too powerful not to rise. You have what it takes to still rise. You have everything it takes on the inside of you to RISE.

Verse 26 not only did the blade spring up but it brought forth fruit.

The enemy sowed tare all around the wheat. Your praise isn’t predicated on who’s around you. In the presence of Tare the wheat still produced



This morning God spoke to me and it’s been a long time coming. Waking from my stupor, it dawned on me that I could still realize my dreams.  In this past year,  I have watched God prove himself to me time and again. I’d grown accustomed to drowning in my guilt.  Believing within myself that I was undeserving of answered prayers.   But then I realized that Guilt is not of God.  Perhaps instead of letting the Devil convince me I couldn’t change, I should instead be giving God praise for his everlasting mercy and grace.   And as reticent as I’ve been,  I’ve found more opportunities to utter the Lord’s praises from these lips.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord. Thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

I’ve often marveled at how God could so easily forgive us our sins at times when it seems we are so steeped in evil.  My place is not to question the how’s or the why’s.  It is simply to believe it when he says your sins have been forgiven.

Mountain Moving Power

Things aren’t currently as great as they were.  However, this isn’t a precursor to depression.  I”m just left in current state of confusion.    The devil has a way of trying to trip you up when you work so hard on exercising your faith.   I feel like the current curveballs are just a test of my true mettle.    However, I will not falter. or at least I’ll try not to.    I won’t go into just how grave our situation is because there’s a part of me that’s embarassed by it.   I am the kind of person who doesn’t’ really like to discuss my financial pitfalls because I was reared in a society in which your true worth is based upon your credit score and financial status.    It’s depressing when you think of it in wordly terms.  So the challenge at hand is to face it on Godly Terms.   What would Jesus Do?    Matthew 21:18 – 22