• African American,  Christianity,  wages of sin

    The Wages of Sin

    Romans 8:6 (New International Version) 6The mind of sinful man[a] is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace; Having spent many years in search of fulfillment, I’ve finally grown to understand the meaning of this verse.   You see when I was without God, I was empty inside looking to fill the void.  I  spent many days depressed and in mourning not knowing wat it was exactly that I was mourning.  Even when I chased after the momentary pleasures of the flesh, there was still this void that needed to be filled.   My soul was still in turmoil.   I was never happy.  I was always miserable.  I always felt…

  • African American

    My dilemma;  I’ve always approached things with a lot of  attitude and pride.  It’s my defense mechanism when I don’t want to be rejected or scoffed at.  It’s been set in place ever since I was a young girl.  I remember a day when I was a child that I’d got up to share a testimony at church.  I was maybe 9 or 10 years old.  Mom and Liz had been fighting a lot and Liz had left the house.   I remember praying “Dear God, please bring my sister back. Please send her home”.  A few months later she was home.  As I’m writing this, I am fighting back the…

  • African American

    The Chicken? or The Egg?

    Genesis 1:1-26 (New International Version) Genesis 1 The Beginning 1 In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. 2 Now the earth was [a] formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters. 3 And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light. 4 God saw that the light was good, and He separated the light from the darkness. 5 God called the light "day," and the darkness he called "night." And there was evening, and there was morning—the first day. 6 And God said, "Let there be an expanse between the waters to…

  • blessings,  Counting your blessings

    Count Your Blessings

    I’ve made it my business to count my blessings.  So I’d like to share with you one of the primary headaches I’ve dealt with over the past few months.  I’ve fallen victim to some harsh circumstance of late and each day that I make my way to work or whatever prospective destination it dawns on me that any day now I could lose the few blessings that I do have.   There have been so many other people I’ve come across, who are down on their luck or going thru extremely rough times.  Yet here it is’ I’ve spent the last 10 years or so griping about what I don’t have.  …

  • African American,  education,  Finances

    National Debt Contributors.

    Now this is a road less traveled when it comes to posting blog entries.   However, I just felt I had to document it today because It is a blatant travesty that 48 yr old adults are much less adept at handling financial matters than some 20 yr olds.   As you may well know, I work for a bank and along came a true test of patience today.    The former (48 yr old) calls in about her account being severely overdrawn due in part to several overdraft fees assessed on the account.   These fees are a result of gross negligence.  The woman started going overdrawn on 7/16/2010 and just never bothered…

  • African American

    Spiritual Improvement Checklist II

    I guess this is something we should add to the  checklist:   Your First Name of: Meshia   Your name of Meshia has created a practical, responsible, stable nature, and you desire to direct the efforts of others rather than to take order or ask permission. You have a determined, self-reliant, capable nature and resent any interference, although in your desire to help you are inclined to become involved in the lives and decisions of other people. You like to make your own decisions and to be the master of your domain. You feel a limitation in your own expression when it is necessary to reach another through tact and…

  • African American,  black women,  women

    Pigs are flying

    That being the case, ladies what would you do if your man just acted like he didn’t’ give a f#@k?   If you’re talking to him about the status of your  relationship that he admittedly says he cherishes, and he falls asleep how would you handle that?  Do you flip the light switch?  Do you just take a mental hiatus?  Spend time with self?  Get the f%^k-em Dress on and do your Single ladies dance?   What is it that you do to take the edge off?  short of having an affair.  Sleeping with someone else isn’t gone make you feel better.  yes I know your shaking your head and saying “leave…

  • African American

    This is me. A crazy eclectic opinionated smart mouth chica born in Jamaica, Raised in New York. Living –and so desperately trying to escape the ills of suburban living– in Connecticut. -Meshia   Maybe I’m no longer trying to escape the ills.  Ct is my safety net until the walls come tumbling down.    I’m still here trying to keep this house afloat when I’d much rather keep a room afloat or an apartment afloat.  My bro lives here with his son on a part time basis  and the tenants are moving out. We’re down to 2 now. but I’m just not in the mood to deal with the different personalities.  …

  • African American

    Principalities and Powers

    I’ve been having this Internal Struggle for the past week or so. I want nothing more than to do what is right and pleasing in the sight of the Lord. But there is a struggle going on within me. I’d been perplexed all week wondering how to solve this issue and here it was the answer was right in front of me. This, in and of itself is proof that God knows our hearts and though sometimes we find ourselves inarticulate (as I have), he truly knows what is heavy on our minds. So this entire week Ephesians chapter 6 has been standing out to me. In my daily sojourn…

  • African American

    What should I do differently?

    Every day lately, I’ve been wondering if I’m doing what’s right in the sight of the Lord. Sometimes he reveals to me a sign that I’m on the right path. On other occasions, it’s like i’m totally clueless. For me I guess what i’m looking to regain is that childlike faith I used to have. I mean I believe that God will answer my prayers don’t get me wrong. But I guess I tend to rush him. We all know that’s not right because he works in his own timing and though we might think he’s supposed to answer us immediately, his timing is usually perfect. I remember now that…