Things aren’t currently as great as they were. However, this isn’t a precursor to depression. I”m just left in current state of confusion. The devil has a way of trying to trip you up when you work so hard on exercising your faith. I feel like the current curveballs are just a test of my true mettle. However, I will not falter. or at least I’ll try not to. I won’t go into just how grave our situation is because there’s a part of me that’s embarassed by it. I am the kind of person who doesn’t’ really like to discuss my financial pitfalls because I was reared in a society in which your true worth is based upon your credit score and financial status. It’s depressing when you think of it in wordly terms. So the challenge at hand is to face it on Godly Terms. What would Jesus Do? Matthew 21:18 – 22
One of the most frustrating aspects of my daily routine is working at a bank cow-towing to overly priviledged customers who have the nerve to call in with conniption fits because they don’t know how to use the automated phone system. Of all the things to harangue about? You would call to complain because you have to enter account numbers in order to make your transfers. Doesn’t that seem a little petty? And maybe keeping $90,000 in our bank to build interest warranted him the right to moan and carryon. But how does he sleep at night, knowing that out there, someone’s digging thru garbage looking for their next meal? That out there someone’s on the verge of a mental breakdown because their house is on foreclosure and they have nowhere to go. Living in a world engorged in darkness has ironically shed light on the burgeoning ethical decline of our society. Remember when people cared a little more? Remember when we were a little less selfish? We’ve gotten so cocky and arrogant with our advances in technology and medicine that we have all but become a Godless society. I can’t say I know when this began or where. But I took notice over the last decade. I noticed that crimes were becoming more sadistic and I noticed that we’ve even been justifying things we would never have thought to justify 20 years ago. I used to bury my head in my books or my internet games so that I’d remain oblivious to it all. But It weighed heavy upon my heart. It still weighs heavy upon my heart. But the up side or the turnabout came for me when I found my way back to Jesus. He was/is (and I know this sounds a bit fanatical) the light at the end of my tunnel. I was depressed and locked myself away in my home outside of going to work and I cut off mostly all contact with the outside world because I felt our circumstances were dire and virtually hopeless. But thru all that, I found a lifeline to God. Genesis 1:2-3 says:
2 Now the earth was [a] formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.
3 And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light.
Do you see that? How awesome is our God that even in the depths of despair he can utter 4 words and bring about the start of creation and the end to all darkness. That’s what God has done with my life. He looked at me and said ” Let there be Light” and there actually was light and there were actually better days and I knew that even though I was surrounded by all this darkness that God was still here reminding me that there was always something to look forward to. I’d intended to turn this post into a rant and rave about some of the mundane aspects of my existence but I cannot help but be happy and content that I can find my strength in Jesus. What would I do without him? I would be miserable as I had been for the last 10 to 15 years. As daunting as my present trials may seem, I have God and God trumps it all. 🙂 ….. tootles folks . I’m off to wally world to buy bed linen.
if given to our own predilections, we tend to “pull rank” more often than not. I too am guilty of harboring an elitist mentality. maybe because It’s my way of being comfortable with self. But there is one thing that I need to be reminded of; and that is we are all here to serve a divine purpose. It hasn’t so much to do with our own wills and objectives. But it has to do with the will of our Father in heaven. We may not all be at the same level of learning in life. Our learning curves may differ. However, it does not make one lesser than the other. Because we are all meant to work together as a whole. The Body of Christ
Romans 12:2-10 (New International Version)
2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
3For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you. 4Just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, 5so in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. 6We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man’s gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his[a]faith. 7If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; 8if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully.
9Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. 10Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves.
I have been praying for Forgiveness for oh so long. I could not for the life of me Fathom how God could forgive me for my multitude of sins. Sometimes i’d think my sins were so numerous that i’d be twice removed from his grace. Then today I was referred to this verse as i was reading the back of this book and it brought tears to my eyes reminding me that God’s mercy is nothing like ours and that he has the capacity to forgive us of our sins and wrong doings if we are truly contrite.
Psalm 103 (New International Version)
1 Praise the LORD, O my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
2 Praise the LORD, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits-
3 who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
5 who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
6 The LORD works righteousness
and justice for all the oppressed.
7 He made known his ways to Moses,
his deeds to the people of Israel:
8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
9 He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
10 he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
13 As a father has compassion on his children,
so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;
I kept reading this book and he kept answering my questions and renewing my faith in him. Every single question I had in my heart he answered and that just let me know that I was not alone.